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false highs & true lows,
the only one you should ever care about
is the only one who knows

yeah i realize you need this,
that it’s just part of your journey
but that never meant i had to sit here and watch it
maybe i told you ‘go ahead’
maybe i told you i was okay with it
that i would wait here and watch you burn bright
maybe i thought you wouldn’t
i always knew you might

this is love baby
this is the way my words roll
these are my feels
and this is how it heals

content to roam in your light
i won’t deny it felt right
i’m more than a little susceptible to fright
my home is the night
i kept waiting for you to bite
all i wanted was flight

false highs & true lows
it’s not my style to take it to blows
i’ll walk where the wildflower grows
then i’ll float where the river goes

false highs & true lows
it’s not my style to take it to blows
i’ll walk where a wildflower grows
then i’ll float where the river goes
the river goes

this is love baby
this is the way my words roll
these are my feels
and this is how it heals

false highs & true lows,
the only one you should ever care about
is the only one who knows

“blow a kiss, fire a gun…”

by JTW
©2015 JTW “jtwhitaker.com” All rights reserved.

radio presets
i try to silence these expectations
but they pound my mind with revelations
and in this deafening contemplation
i feel the inexorable desperation
of hearts drenched by dehydration
in the romantic’s trench of trepidation
wherein lies the subtle stench of reckless stagnation

passion in moderation?
it’s never been my inspiration
plus i thought that with enough mutual adoration
maybe a spark could light our navigation
chalk it up to my insatiably experimental imagination
or my tenaciously detrimental determination
either way it’s one of those rainy days
plenty of seeds but no germination
and none of the presets fit

so i tune to different stations
trying to better define my latest hesitations
tap my leg to their beating flagellations
and drive blindly to only one
of two possible destinations

“i’ve been looking at you too much from the outside, from the outside…”

by JTW
©2013 JTW “jtwhitaker.com” All rights reserved.

it’s kinda sad
the looks on their faces
so stressed & worried
by these unfamiliar places

they can’t relate
and so they sit’n debate
my happiness & sanity
obsessed with who they think i should be

i can’t be mad
i can only be true
can’t relieve their minds
by the things i say or do

they’ve never been here
their home is their fear
and i guess that shelter suits’m fine
but my peace comes from a different kind

maybe i’m bad
but we’re all gonna die
and if it’s not the things you love that kill you
it’s been the things you wouldn’t try

i’m not concerned with changing minds
they were never my minds to break
i’m far to busy being true to me
to be bothered by what is fake

the fields are green
and everything i need
and when the trains zoom by
i smile at their speed
i fly somewhere high
to drop a little seed
the kind of life i’m livin’
is the one i choose to lead
it’s not in the books they’re used to
but it’s a hell of’a one to read

the fields are green
and everything i need
and when the trains zoom by
i smile at their speed
i fly somewhere high
to drop a little seed
the kind of life i’m livin’
is the one i choose to lead
it’s not in the books they’re used to
but it’s a hell of’a one to read

“i’m doin’ fine watching shadows on the wall…”

by JTW
©2012 JTW “jtwhitaker.com” All rights reserved.

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