“didn’t see that coming.”

i’ve been saying that internally a lot the past week in various scenarios at work and in my personal life and it kind of climaxed rather anticlimactically today.

so i go through the usual motions – the why’s, the when’s, the what changed’s – all the typical questions that will never be answered.

it doesn’t get any easier. not really. not for someone like me.

and i suppose somewhere therein lies the key. because i am the common denominator. and i’m barely real – they’ve said so. sure, i wear an invitation on the front of my t-shirt but that doesn’t seem to matter. most people are afraid of what they don’t understand or are too lazy to put in any effort or even to just simply be entertained awhile. they go for the familiar and clearer path of least resistance. or least distance. especially if they’re not after much.

the part that sucks is that i have to deal with actually caring and the analyzation that follows. oh, don’t get me wrong, i don’t mind that. but i mind that it’s starting to get boring. i’m tired of processing the week after the weekend. i’m tired of writing about it. ya know?
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“not gonna look…”

by JTW
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