i should have seen it coming. but they’re the prettiest and all they want to do is get across…

walls crumble around
crash down
you stand transfixed
in the middle of it all

can’t move
maybe want to
maybe not
maybe want to look away
but your eyes don’t close
and your head won’t turn

so you stare
as destruction devours you
to implode with the rest of it

somewhere in the ruin that is left
a tiny spec may find water
and that might be just enough
to start it all over again

i’ve spent most of the day trying to squeeze out more than a couple half-hearted drops. i could feel it bubbling somewhere just below the surface…just waiting for enough heat to send it over the edge. but it didn’t come. a few close calls.

a few helpful conversations. honest friends. some commiserators. some people not opposed to a leaning hug. all of us.

there’s a subtlety to love & relationships that we all feel but many don’t know how to articulate and it’s often the catalyst for breakdown – where time & space interfere with the communication between two parties and conclusions are reached prematurely. or maybe not so.

*spoiler alert*

everyone has a baseline. it’s made up of our habits, our emotions, our thinking processes, activities and behaviors. similarly, every relationship also develops a baseline.

sustained deviation from the baseline means something external has triggered something internal that forces change. the change could come in the form of growth or recession.

sure, baselines in people and relationships are organic. nuances shift over time. but it’s when that change is fast, when the growth or destruction is rapid, that it’s most felt above the surface.

and it almost doesn’t matter whether it’s wrong or right, whether the thing you think is valid or not. because it’s your feeling. it’s your intuition. and those are powerful. and they’ll stick. more than that, they’re mystery. and don’t we love a good thriller.

so here we are halfway…here’s my neck, here’s my wrist. the rest is up to you.

“what are you waiting for…take a bite…”

by JTW
©2011 JTW “jtwhitaker.com” All rights reserved.

also my entry this week for #oneshotwednesday @onestoppoetry.