[seems like a good day for another one. bernie is such an extraordinary & original lyricist. their collaboration is timeless & legendary. (why settle for less?)]
i knew i had something to say
but the sun hadn’t come out for a long time
until today
and i want to thank you
for parting the clouds
and pointing the way
if it weren’t for this love
well we all must pay
but now i know
there’s more to these questions i pray
so she came back to me
with all her brilliance & light
and we felt something right
besides cold in the night
it resumes
but with less empty rooms
and i cherish the ride
where nothing must hide
from the love inside
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i slept so much the last two days. didn’t get up until after 2 pm both of ‘em. sleep really does wonders for the mood even though most of the time i keep vampire’s hours and then i just run on caffeine and adrenaline and other various stimulants.
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there really is no point to this post. there’s no epic update. no beautiful words. no pain. really it’s all just a bit meh right now. all a bit waiting. and i decided that was post-worthy because it’s real & true to life. sometimes life is waiting. waiting for the school bus, waiting for the coffee to brew, waiting for the line to move, waiting for the other shoe to drop. waiting is a big part of life.
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28 days. it doesn’t sound like much but it hasn’t moved fast. so i drop another letter in the box and sign it with love. that’s all i can do. and throw in a twenty cause i know what it feels like.
and some things are just too complicated. better wait till we’re in person. better wait till all the answers can be questioned and all the questions can’t be answered. and around & around we’ll go. but i have some things to say before, ya know?
and you’ll get what you want. but it’ll be when i’m good & ready. and soonish. cause it is all just a bit meh right now. and i hate meh.
let’s see…what else? oh yeah, i’m glad vacation is over. i missed the commiseration. and size is overrated. among other things.
and then i guess pretzel & pepperoni sandwiches about sums it up. so yeah, thanks for visiting. until next time.
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yeah, i admit i get a little sidetracked. (yes, i said a little!)
it’s just that sometimes weary travelers find my building and they’re not quite ready for it. but it’s late at night and they’re lost. so they stay anyway, for maybe a night or two. i never meant for it to be an inn, but that’s what it has been lately, more often than not. and i guess that’s okay really. my building is for me, it’s not for everyone.
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you’d think those five months of what you had would be enough. ha! who am i kidding? add another 95 and then make all kinds of excuses. and they’ll help you sleep at night – in between checking for messages.
and still, you’re not quite certain. but hon, i digress. a lot. and my attention span just isn’t what it…well, let’s just say it measures value for me. it retains what’s worth it and the rest it expunges. i used to be obsessive about saving everything but that was when i wasn’t healthy. and not that i’ve jumped to the other extreme but my fingers have a new dexterity for the delete key that wasn’t there before.
so i think you might have been a little surprised. maybe thought you were gonna play some games for a few days – nah, that kinda drama is so <2010.
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yep, i'm good. this morning i went shopping for a shiny new guestbook. come by, stay as long as you like, don't forget to leave a sweet comment or two on your way out!
oh, and if you get too noisy, the management may take issue with that. this is supposed to be a place of safety, of tranquility. the permanent residents don't have any patience for anything less – fair warning.
